Quickly

I feel like I'm sinking rather quickly, school shut down, completely, never opening again kinda thing. I'm loosing money and I just don't know where I'm going in life. I got a letter from the student loan place and they want me to start paying the money back since I 'dropped out' of my courses, bullshit, my school shut down. I'm bored with work, though I am moving into serving shortly, on monday actually.

The boy and I are doing well it would seem, at times we argue and sometimes I just hurt way too much. It still hurts that he doesn't really want a relationship because it feels like I'm trying to ride that train alone where as he's off at a station somewhere talking to whomever he likes. I know stuff like that doesn't happen but I'm not not feeling the best. Though he has stopped the 'psh, she's not my girlfriend' comment which has helped.

Life just seems to have gone upside down recently, I don't know what I want to do or where I want to do it, nore do I have the money to do it and it's all rather confusing. Though I'll get to two of my friends right around my birthday which is nice, it almost seems like I only have two friends. When I go visit it's like they're the only two who want to see me at all... Other then family ofcourse. But I miss highschool in the fact that I got to see my friends everyday, and we stayed in touch where as now I get to see them once a month at most and I only stay in touch with one or two of them. I miss the good old days.

But I must get ready for work seeing as it's the only thing I really ever do anymore, as sad as that is. Oh well, it's life.